October 8, 1973, Monday evening
On Being Coarse and Two-Faced
Ven. Master Hua
Many people are coming to attend our Ceremony for Opening of Light. All of us should try to be more alert and aware, and not indulge in constant frivolous chatter. Bhikshus in particular should pay attention to this point and not cause others to look down upon us, thinking, ďWhat a bunch of rowdy youths! They are so unruly!Ē
Monastery will lose its reputation right then and there. Gold Mountain
You should not cause a big ruckus or hold conferences in the restroom. I hear people meeting in the restroom all the time. This is especially the case with the tall monk. As soon as he comes, you can hear his voice yelling and hollering in the restroom. How shameless! How pathetic!
The two people who meet in the restroom ought to know who you areóI donít need to call you by name. Not only are they unruly in the restroom, they are even worse in the dining hall and the Buddha Hall.
They should talk more softly and not be so coarse and loud, like a loudspeaker that can be heard five or six blocks away. Thatís completely against the rules. Iíve been trying to tolerate this situation and not bring it up for a long time, but today I couldnít hold back any longer. If I held back any longer, the whole Gold Mountain Monastery would collapse, as if a cannonball had struck it.
Does anyone want to say anything? Anyone who wants to speak can do so for five minutes. You can pass judgment on whether what Iíve said is right or not. If you disagree, openly express your disagreement. Donít keep it inside or only let it out when no one is around. Iím not afraid of opposition. In fact, I welcome it. However, you ought to clearly express your disagreement to everyone. Donít be like a certain Bhikshu disciple, who tells me he doesnít disagree with anything I say, but then stirs things up when Iím not around. As soon as Iím gone, he tries to turn everyone against me, telling them not to listen to me. Now heís living on his own, and I wonder whether he considers himself to have merit or offenses. I hope no one will repeat his mistake. He shows one face in front of his teacher, and another face when his teacherís back is turned, making him a two-faced person.
A few years ago, I had planned to turn the abbotship over to this disciple. However, when I was in
South America, he tried to drive all the people away. He wanted neither lay people, nor nuns, nor monks around. He wanted to be left just by himself, alone, and then he himself would not want to stay either. But he could not run away. When I returned, I tried to chase him away, but he refused to leave. Because of his behavior, he lost the opportunity to be the abbot. I had wanted to give the position to him, but it wouldnít have worked.
After I founded the International Institute for the Translation of Buddhist Texts, many times I considered making him the director. Then I thought of how even he realizes his problems. Heís told us how from the time he was little he tried to oppress and control everyone. Well, unfortunately, he canít control himself. Thatís why, in the end, he lost the position of director. This matter grieves me deeply.
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